overthinking.

I wrote a list of my flaws
if you ever read it
would you still laugh as loud?

if you saw me right now
so insecure and full of doubt,
would you stop playing with my heart
and finally throw it out?


if I could ask you something
it would be to feel the same;
if I could give you something
advice to leave right away

truth is I've been waiting for you to run
I'm a patient girl, I know the day will come;
knowing you exist will always be the only surprise

ok

I lied


I'm not patient at all
and it kills me from inside

so I've been spending my time
coming to terms with the fact
that you will probably,
most likely,
never be mine.